Afif

Literally im emotional fragile right now. Idk why. Sometime i wish that im like other guys although im not stay at home at all.  This is because i hate being sissy guy which loves girls thing stuff. I tried to resist but i cant. I dont want to be a girl but i think i love something feminine stuff like fashion, pink colour, dolls and etc.  When i was kid, i am so sissy. I love talk like girls, imagine wears rollerblade like heels, love candy that shaped like lipsticks and guess what my first kite is mermaid not superhero or ugly kite one.  I dont know why i turns like this. Maybe because i am close too much with my mom. And literally i wanna be like her and until now. But i cant be like her 100% because we have different gender. But maybe i can be like her emotionally or her behaviour.  When i was 17 years old, i bought my first doll which i feel afraid and at same time, i feel good. This is because when i was a young boy, i love playing paper dolls which i always ask...